On the last day of February, on the flight to Lijiang, I wrote you a letter but did not send it to you. Tomorrow we will say goodbye at the airport again, and I will write another letter, not knowing if it will be sent this time.
I often feel like we have known each other for a long time, never being so intimate with another person. The calendar reminds me that it has been almost 100 days since our first meeting. Calculating, we have spent more than half of our days together, almost 24 hours a day, so it's not surprising that we are so close. You help me arrange my study courses, hoping that I can experience the scenery you have experienced, and even persuading me to go for a medical check-up with you. I really want to explore more sides of you, understand your thoughts, and grow together with you.
At first, I thought you were simple, direct, very intelligent, and brave. Later, I realized that you have chosen purity, taking everything seriously. What I see is you living passionately, moving forward courageously and freely. You always say that you are cold on the outside but warm on the inside, but in fact, the world is too cold and thin, and perhaps everyone feels cold at times. Your brave and passionate appearance deeply attracts me. How can someone who is truly cold love life so much? There must be a flame burning deep inside.
I like the way you look handsome in your big snowsuit, holding a snowboard and rushing towards the cable car without hesitation. I envy your passion for the outdoors and sports, and the joy you gain from them. Last time at Duolemeidi, I watched you freely glide past on the adjacent ski slope, with the backdrop of the unfinished framework of a five-star hotel. The world is so dramatic. In a terrible world, there are always exceptionally beautiful things that shine upon me.
The meaning of companionship is not just about being happy together, but also includes encouragement when climbing up a rock wall and support during difficult times. All of this will leave marks on each other.
I am quite prone to anxiety, and a lot of my energy is spent on planning, worrying, overturning, and planning again. But during this period of time, it feels like I have given myself away, replacing fear with anticipation of the unknown, and preparing myself to embrace more beautiful things. Occasionally, I still feel emotional and unconsciously escape, but I can visibly recover. I think this is mostly because of you. I also hope to give you strength, to see you become stronger and happier, and to work together towards our shared expectations.
When you first mentioned long-distance, I didn't think much of it and didn't see it as a problem. Then I found out that you will be leaving soon, and only then did I realize, "Ah... it's farther than I thought, and there doesn't seem to be much time left." But soon, the overwhelming excitement of a new life washed away those thoughts.
Time flies, it's already March, and it seems difficult not to think about the upcoming separation. I haven't had a chance to imagine the future days, but I am looking forward to everything that lies ahead, the open unknown. All we can do now is to embrace and welcome it more diligently, allowing the beautiful to happen.
Thank you for appearing in my life, it is the beginning of all this beauty.